I am me. =) but i havent been feeling me me. for a long time. i havent been myself.
i'm tired. i really am.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I am me. =) but i havent been feeling me me. for a long time. i havent been myself.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Can I help you with your luggage?
No man is an island. We cannot live our lives devoid of other human beings because as humans ourselves, we long for companionship and we long to be dependable and to depend on.
As we live our lives, we often come into contact with people who holds expectations of us. We are expected to be good sons and daughters first by our parents, then we are expected to do our work in school.... and the list goes on and on.
These are the 'Expectation' luggage that we have to carry along with us throughout our lives. Sometimes we carry too much of it. so much so that we feel like we are walking the lives of others. So, what is a balance? Should be live our lives for ourselves, not caring about what others think of us, not caring about the expectations others have of us, for just as long as we are happy, we are living our lives?
Many a times, people might associate this with punk rocker wannabes or druggies with more tattoos than clothes. But what exactly is living our lives while carrying the baggage that we lug around?
There is a limit to how much baggage we can carry, even on the plane, and more so in life. Some of us are thin some of us are fat, some of us are strong some of us are weak. We are all made to carry different sizes of baggage.
What happens if a person carries too much baggage? it depends on how the person looks at the baggage! It may spur them on. Well, in the Gym, extra weights means you are growing, you are getting there! But what if the weights are really too heavy for you to handle. You will pull a muscle, or hurt yourself. So the very important thing is to know your limits.
If the limits are reached, people tend to go into depression not knowing what to do or they might just explode and end up throwing the baggages all around.
=)
Sunday, July 12, 2009
When I grow up..
I guess I am not mature enough yet to handle such a vast array of emotions which the human can experience. Maybe that is why as we get older, we are less susceptible to feeling so much emotional ups and downs, preferring to live a routine peaceful life.
Being so far from everything and everyone I used to be closed to, I understand that it makes me miss everything I had. But at the same time, it taught me to be really independent, to not want to approach and get what i used to have. Yes, though, i have already received 3 parcels from my family containing goodies from back home, I am thankful for that. But i realised those are just the extras which i can make do without.
Sometimes I wish I can be mature enough to face up to my own feelings and I wish I can be true to how i feel and express it. But many times, we live for not just ourselves, we carry the burdens of not just myself, my parents, gf and her parents. Sometimes its really hard and tiring.
OH well. =) Just ranting.
2 Comment(s):
Dear weijie,
i think that your overseas study (apart from being trained for a professional job) is meant to equipped with a heightened level of independance)for you being there.
Certainly, after this training (bagging a good hospitality degree at the same time), it will assist in your relationships with all those around you; so although it may be a bit rough on relationships at the moment: you can look forward to the fruits of your training when you return. (This time of solitude is not all bad)
As for me, i too am learning to be more independence in prepartion for relationship i would share with the person closest to me (no idea who that is yet) as well as ministry work: i too am learning now - though some years older. smiles.
For Christ.
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, at 7:24 PM
Hope to see you again, my brother.
By , at 7:26 PM
Monday, July 06, 2009
With these feet.
With these two tired feet, i will continue this Race of Life. Even if i have to crawl, i would be crawling my way to the end. And at the end of it all, I wish, like a fallen athlete determined to finish his race, the spectators would stand and applaud.
Instead of the jeers and badmouthing, we all want to be strong. But at times, we crumble and fall. In these times that we fall, we grow we learn we become more determined.
2 Comment(s):
we are all sheltered flowers, it is through storms that we learn how to survive.
By , at 2:12 AM
are u doing well over there?
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
I suddenly have the urge to tell the world how i feel. Yet i don't want the world to know.
Which makes me think of this blog that no one comes.
I need . . .
I want my family. I want my friends. I want i want i want. I need i need i need.
I feel terribly alone. Like i have lost everything. or maybe because i never cherished what i had. or maybe i was alone right from the start. I had enough of tears. I had enough of crying. But i cant stop myself. from thinking how alone i am. I just feel so tight. my heart aches.
call me homesick. call me stupid. call me immature. call me childish. whatever you call me it doesn't ease the pain nor does it make me feel better.
but i will smile. and be strong. =) we all learn from every setback. and bounce back up strong, tougher. and happier. in time to come.
2 Comment(s):
hey, aikbin here. i stumbled across your blog while looking at your fb i think. quite some time back. hmmm...cheer up :) you know that even if you're alone there, God is always with you. dont worry anymore. just take things one step at a time. JIAYOU!!! you can do it de. :)
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By , at 3:13 PM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
i love baby. i miss baby. i'm thinking of baby.
Been back in singapore and back here to swiss already. haven't been blogging because I have been using Facebook's notes to update people of my life. Though not everyone would want to know what I am up to. Which is why I seldom use this blog so here i am again to blog something about my baby.
She looks really cute, concentrating on her report which she intends to finish. While I am taking a break off work.
love you baby! =)
Not much inspiration to type! so that's all for today okay baby?
Friday, January 23, 2009
I'm heading home. This time for a period of 5 weeks!
YAYs for the week :
Finished my finals [for 1st yr ]
End of 1st YEAR! [MAJOR YAY YAY YAY]
Major BOOs for the coming months :
Start of 1st Year Internship [SUPER DUPER INCREDIBLE MAJOR BOO BOO BOO]
CNY's waiting for me. Dont know how's things back home. hopefully good. =)
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
esp to those who are not spending CNY back home [be for the 1st time or not]
like AH PIO! , YY, JOJO, CHAI, SARAH, RACHEL, SHIERLY, JOHNESS, ANDREW, AND EVERYONE ELSE WHOM I DIDNT MENTION!
Dont be sad! =) its just CNY! for the sake of our futures, lets work hard!
加油！我們可以的！過了七個月後，我們到時再見面！希望大家都會過的好！雖然距離很遠，可是還有FACEBOOK， 所以記得把照片放上FACEBOOK！
SHMS has been really good to me. The people, friends, classmates, working staff. They have all been v supportive and helpful throughout the whole of my first year. As this 1st year ends and we step into Internship. I just hope things will be similar though it might not. But I'll work hard in wherever I am and do my very best.
That's called self-motivation! hah. I'm seriously not looking forward to internship because I'm not prepared to leave my comfort zone ; school. It has become a place I know I can go crazy and my friends [ like JUSTIN ] would scold me ' KAI 子 ' and we would both just keep laughing at each other, calling each other names. =) oh well. This is a place where I have grown used to. But like everyone's favourite phrase now is ' Change is the only constant' . I would just have to grow use to working as a waiter in that Chinese Restaurant. Lucky Ming. OH weeeellllll.
It is such times when we leave our comfort zone to do things that we are not used to that helps us grow and mature and to become who we are meant to be! n'est pas?
Not wanting to think so far, just cant wait to settle all the CRAP that I have to do before checking out of school and the nonsense packing! =p only because I have quite a bit of things. But I cant wait to get out of here YET that's this nagging feeling that makes me wanna stay in school. =)
When I 1st returned to school after the Christmas break, I felt a little taken aback by school, only because after sleeping in for 2 weeks and slacking my time away, I was thrown back to reality, SCHOOL! BOHAAHHAHA. [Mapore gang would understand] but it wasnt difficult to fit into the usual place that we belong to in the school community. =)
Tired from the mad rush of exams. settling check out, packing. staying up late studying. snacking on biscuits, eating chips and drinking coke for dinner, trying to live up to personal expectations of improving average grade. YIKES.
2 Comment(s):
Dear brotehr,
God's love, grace (assist us though we do not deserve) and peace be with you.
God our heavenly Father loves you always.
Rom 8: 31 - 39
For Christ.
By
Seah Kah Yang, at 5:16 PM
i mean brother. smiles.
By
Seah Kah Yang, at 5:17 PM
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